23 September: Vernal Equinox reading

Today is the spring equinox. The day when light and dark are in balance. It is a time for us to confront our inner darkness and choose what we want to bring into the light.  It is a time for spring-cleaning the soul and the physical.

Changing yourself requires courage — it also requires you to be honest, generous, compassionate and patient with yourself.
~ Phyliss Currot in Witch Crafting: A spiritual guide to making magic

Honesty reminds us not only to be clear in what we say and do, but also to act and speak with compassion and tact. Brutal honesty is usually not true honesty at all but is somehow slanted toward the worst.

I have decided that it makes sense to look at where I would like to be one year from now, after all…if I don’t know where I want to go, I cannot figure out how to get there. One year from now I would like to have a thriving business creating websites which helps people to share their stories and knowledge. And also showcases special memories in the form of slideshow movies.
Because this is a big picture I have decided to try a Celtic Cross layout:

  1. Present: Reversed Gloominous Doom  (a Faery Challenger)
  2. Influence: The UnDressing of a Salad (a Faery Guide and Guardian)
  3. Past issues: The Lady of the Harvest (one of the Sidhe)
  4. Immediate past: Reversed The Journeyman (another of the Sidhe)
  5. Thoughts: The Master Maker (another of the Sidhe)
  6. Immediate future: O! That Gnome (yet another of the Sidhe)
  7. Fears: Reversed Arval Parrot (one of the Help-line Troupe)
  8. Environmental factors: Reversed Laiste Moon’s daughter (another Faery Guide and Guardian)
  9. Hopes: Geeeeeooo the Slow (another Help-line Troupe faery)
  10. Outcome: He of the Fiery Sword (a Singer)

Gloominous Doom is the faery of self-pity, he is a cute faery with large sorrowful eyes and his challenge to us is to avoid wallowing in self-pity, self-destruction and self-defeat. His presence is always cautionary. But as a reversed faery he speaks of taking care of ourselves…doing the things that we know we need to do, that aren’t necessarily exciting: making sure that we eat our vegetables and brush our teeth, making our bed every day, honouring our commitments to ourselves and living as though we are worthy…because we are.

The UnDressing of a Salad speaks of impossibility, and of the constant balancing of many balls. The truth is we are seldom given the opportunity to focus on a single thing in life, there will always be distractions but what we can do is make a list of all of our balls and then focus on the one that is in play, before rolling it on and paying attention to the next thing.  And this is what Adroito is telling me: There is lots in play, do one thing at at a time and it will all come together.

The Lady of the Harvest speaks of completion of letting things go.  Cleaning a house requires that you work one little bit at a time: taking out some trash from each room…it does not require huge emotional investment when you throw away the rubbish…you can simply let it go. “There are things that make us lighter and happier when we release them — old traumas, tasks, or stages in our lives that we are glad to have finished, unhappy relationships or feelings that cause us pain and inhibit our growth. Sometimes we simply comfortably finish with one aspect of our lives and move onto the next, happily anticipated one.” I believe that here the Lady of the Harvest is simply speaking to me about acknowledging that everything that has happened up until now has happened…I cannot control it nor change it, but I can accept the gifts of the growth that it has given me and how it has shaped me.

The Journeyman in a reversed position speaks of delaying a journey…possibly because of our fear. “If you are satisfied that the journey is in the right direction for you, prepare for it carefully and, once you have done so, go for it. Waiting will not make it any easier. If it is just fear holding you back, take a long draught from the Chalice of Courage and step out boldly.” This is an incredibly appropriate card, indicating what is in the immediate past. Not having taken the step. As I have mentioned I am nervous but anxiety is not an excuse for inaction.

The Master Maker speaks of putting one’s heart and soul into an enterprise. “The Master maker is the master of the forge upon which we create our futures and forge our own souls.” The solver of practical problems he speaks of attention to details and that “No job is too small to do beautifully”.

Bringing ideas into excellently crafted reality can only be done when we, like the Master Maker, are willing to plan meticulously, begin carefully, and persevere through difficulties, learning still more of our craft as we work. Craftsmanship is also a labor of love. We must be willing to tackle difficult challenges and have a determination to surpass previous achievements. Patience is always required as is the willingness to do a thing again and again until it is even better than the best one can do.

I cannot think of a more auspicious card in the position…clearly my head is in the right place. Now it is just to make sure that I implement beautifully.

O! That Gnome indicates the presence of creative chaos, in the guidebook, the starter reading says that “it is time to leap into the air, letting the earth turn beneath you, and discover where you come down again. Reasonable risks are okay. Even unreasonable risks are probably okay. Use your head and look before you leap, of course, but do so understanding that the actual jump is likely to be very rewarding. No guarantees, but then there never really are anyway, no matter how pretty the paper they may seem to be printed on and the scrollwork around the edge.” Here is a time to go for it. I cannot predict what the rewards may be but doing nothing changes nothing.

Arval Parrot being on his head in the position of my fears. The guidebook says: “Communications are blocked.” and “Useful information held in silence benefits no one and may harm the situation.” One of the things that I am afraid of now, is being a busy-body and telling people something that they do not want to know. Here, Arval is telling me to get over myself. Honest information communicated with good intentions is not harmful. Knowledge shared is a good thing.

The opposite of riddles is clarity, and here the reversed Sphinx is speaking clearly, she is telling me to be aware of my environment. She advises not to demand super-human perfection of myself or others…to allow us to do our best and make the mistakes on the way to mastery. I once read that having a black belt did not mean that the martial artist was never going to make mistakes again but rather that they had mastered the basics…and this is what Laiste is talking about here.

Geeeeeooo the Slow speaks of everything progressing the way that it is meant to, in it’s proper place and it’s proper pace. Slowly and steadily the continents drift shaping the world making big changes. Here the hopes are pretty big and I would love it to all proceed according to it’s natural order.

In the possible outcome slot I drew my first Singer, He of the Fiery Sword: A Singer of action. The guidebook says: “We can call upon the master of the fiery sword when we have difficult things to do, when we need to take action that is going to require much of us, both in will and in compassion.” His presence indicates doing what needs to be done with love.  The presence of this Singer indicates that there is work to be done. That it will not be easy and without mistakes but that it will be worthwhile.

This was quite an in depth reading and that I believe is reasonable…I did ask for a year’s worth of insight. But  it is a lot to take in, and so I am going to draw a single card asking what to focus on until the 31 October the next major holiday…the festival of Beltane when the potential becomes the real. And another to help me to define a smaller chunk of my goal.

For my focus card I drew Indi, one of the Faery Challengers, who speaks about making a decision and following through with action. So in this case it is pretty clear, focus on taking action…nice clear direction.
And as to what portion of the goal I should be working on a Collection of Pixies, a group of Faeries who belong in the Help-Line Troupe signifies joyful collaborations.

Love and equinox blessings,

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